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Jessie (When We Were 17)

Jessie took too many pills when we were 17
But she didn't mean to kill herself in my opinion
Because in her hands the police found a gold engagement ring
The type a teenage boy can just afford

And there were 2 dead girls lying on the bed
One I knew and one I never met
And how I wish I knew you

They took her to the hospital as fast as they could drive
Although her brain was dead they tried to keep her heart alive
A moment gave so they could save the baby left inside
But soon enough they turned off the machine

And there were 2 dead girls lying on the bed
One I knew and one I never met
But how I wish I knew you

But you had to go
And leave me alone
Now I'm far from home

What about our baby Jessie

What Strange Machines


Cut my eyes out
I don't want to touch you anymore
now I know the truth


Could you promise that you'd never disappear
or turn into a ghost


What strange machines
are spinning clockwork in my head
now I know the truth


Could you promise that you'd never disappear
or turn into a ghost


Its about time
here's the count down
making such a quiet sound
ticking by like a clicking machine gun
ready to shoot me dead to the ground


Could you promise that you'd never disappear
And its 4 and its 3 and its 2.
Are you really that surprised?


I know what this is
with curtains burned the windows clear ahead
so tell me the truth

Freaks Freaks Freaks


There was a message scratched in the wall of the toilet the said CIRCUS FREAK
I tore it down as I left I stepped on the drunks and the corpses in the street
the bouncer tipped us a wink, hey watch out he'll take what you owe in oral sex
he'll bump and grind and laugh out loud when he turn and asks you“What comes next?”


Staring across the Marxist bar was a girl with a predatory eye
who wraps her legs around broken men and smash their hearts when their lost inside
as she screams, he screams we all cry out, but why would you ask when its so complex
the skeleton key of a cock-sure bitch with a roving eye, well, what comes next.


Where are you hiding in the darkness
I hear you breathing fast and loud
like an earthquake shaking up my bones
you're unmissable, you freaks you freaks,
junkies, outcasts, freaks of nature.
You freaks freaks freaks

You're a Shooting Star


Melt the ice from around your broken heart
wipe the cold disbelief from your eyes
my fingers freeze as they touch my pallid skin
but I can see through a fault in your disguise
Tell me are you gonna make up your mind
what-ya gonna do tell me what-cha gonna do if you stay


Because your a shooting star in the freezing cold
and through the dark you cast no shadow
on a sleeping world
you can fight your fears again


Burn the fears from around your broken heart
light the sun with the fire in your eyes
I can see us breaking from this constellation
we'll escape moving at the speed of light


Can you breathe
can we trip around the sun
can you breathe
can we hide before we run
can you slide into the atmosphere
before we explode


You're a shooting star in the freezing cold
and like a ghost you cast no shadow
on a sleeping world
you can fight your fears again

Tell Me Tell Me


Tell me tell me watchya gotta do to get a drink around here
It's... well maybe it's all right
that upon the lips of a delicate soul
fell a chorus of heartache as, oh my heart
fell to pieces as it fell on the floor
she said “it slipped through my fingers, I'm sorry,
but you should have thrown that old thing out”


I keep on reaching out but it's never enough.


Tell me tell me watchya gotta do to get a drink around here.


You can put it in your mouth
a cure like cock with a candy taste
with as much as you can get from a cigarette
and it comes in a handy paste
but with a vampire kiss on your bloodless lips
it'll suck your sex drive out

When You Wake Up I'll Be Gone


Last night I ran through the empty streets
To the house where you live
And wrote my choice on a paper heart
Folded up in my hand


Here I go again
when you wake up I'll be gone


Last night I fell from the greatest height
Tumbled backwards through space
And with an angry voice and bloodshot eyes
Tore you down to your face


Here I go again
when you wake up I'll be gone


Cried out and whispered in an angry voice
crashing wept like an orchestra
violin tears and trumpet wails
a climbing crescendo to stay
Better run

Holes


There are holes in me in shapes I recognise
of all the people that I love
and all the things that I don't have
they're wide and deep enough to see the other side
and watch the people walking by
their faces as the multiply
And the more I try to fill them with the things I find
the more I cannot get enough
I'll tell you when I've had enough


Can you help me
what more can I do
when the darkness is taking over
and I'm breaking
but if I can't make the choice
what am I supposed to do
when the darkness is taking over
what will be left to fill the holes


Hold on tight we're getting out of here
before the fools arise from sleep
Before the holes have swallowed me
they can keep us down but the can't keep us apart
I'll tell you when I've had enough
if you tell me when you've had enough

Vagina Removal (the Latest Fashion)

It started off as a question in her head
but the question was a cancer and it spread
to her fingers lungs and finally to her heart
said the president “you've got moments to live”


So the plastic surgeon cut away her arms and her legs
stuck a hand in her vagina and he cut out her eggs
as the doctor amputated to the bass of her neck
said he “thank god we might have saved you”


But there's an irritation
I'm just an imitation
left over amputation
still that's the latest fashion


Left right left I walk in perfect step
and tear you down if you fall behind
we're spinning round and round til we're upside down
and then I'll make you pay I'll make you pay


But there's an irritation
I'm just an imitation
left over amputation
still thats the latest fashion
a hyper-combination
but with irradiation

I'm An Instamatic


I'm an instamatic
I'm a camera shutter open
when you're hiding in the corner
from a tyrant what a tin man
are you searching for a reason
would a father hate his daughter
are you fighting for a question
like the weather in New Orleans


Could I fall in love with you


I'm an instamatic
I'm a page of colour stolen
by a thief so systematic
now you'll never be forgotten
and though I will not abandon
you to wanton self destruction
though you're tied up like a sex toy
could I love or want another


Could I fall in love with you


Tooth and nail
you're scratching at your own dead skin
and tearing it in two

If I Ever (Crashing Down)


There's a knife in my heart and a storm in my head
where our consciences meet there our politics end
in a candle of fear that explodes like a bomb
and the aftershocks ring with a rhythm that beats like a drum


It all came crashing down
but I never meant any harm
just wanted to get away
and God help you if I ever come here again


Carbon monoxide a cloud overhead
that erases the sun and raises the dead
how the blood on my hands bears the reassuring weight of a gun


It all came crashing down
but I never meant any harm
just wanted to get away
and God help you if I ever come here again


Turn around now you've got to turn and run away

Violet the Killjoy


I opened the door and was sure there was somebody there
And Violet the Killjoy was hiding and waiting to take me
As a matter of fact as I stood with my back to the wall
A shot like a thrill ran a riot until it had faded


I wanted you to save me from the outside in
I wanted you to save me from the outside in
I wanted you to save me from the outside
But what was outside
But what was out came in


Violet the Killjoy emerged from her place in the night
And shot through the dark like the flash of a spark as it faded
To a point in the black where the gun met the back of my head
With a torment to mock like the tick of a clock as it faded


I wanted you to save me from the outside in
I wanted you to save me from the outside in
I wanted you to save me from the outside
But what was outside
But what was out came in


I'm afraid but you left me alone
You left me alone and I'm shaking, I'm shaking
I'm afraid but you left me alone
You left me alone and I'm shaking, I'm shaking
I'm afraid but you left me alone
You left me alone and I'm shaking, I'm shaking
I'm lost and I'm violet
I said I wanted you to
Save me from the outside in

If I Could Disappear

I was hanging from a mountain by a string
And how I swing
How I'm swinging like a bell that sounds
A peel of indecision as it rings
How it sings
How it sings and cries from deep inside
The box that holds my torn and pretty things
Such pretty things
The words I bring to hide and prey behind

If I could disappear
If I could disappear

I was whispered by a judgement not to speak
My ardent plea
Punched a hole into the night and through I climbed
Into the darkness of the street
And on silent feet
On silent feet I crept the distance to the wall
And through the window that revealed
What I could steal
What I could steal but I already own

If I could disappear

Can you relieve my mind?
Can you relieve my mind?
Can you relieve my mind?
Can you relieve my mind?


I Miss You Like a Burning House

I miss you like the burning house
That falls around our heads
I want you back

I wish I was like you in all the ways I'm not
The tendency takes hold
I want you back

If I need your help

I stumble through the crowd with intentions and wine
That trickle down my spine
I want you back

If I need your help

I miss you like the burning house
That falls around our heads
I want you back

She Got Started Up

She was clever but ever so fragile a human
A scared little girl just hollow doubt
But if we severe forever the growing confusion
That's filling up her mouth just shout it out
But you cannot even
Whats the matter are we always running out of time
Like a distracted lover you can never satisfy

She got started up
But she let it slip away

She discovered a lover the latest in fashion
A clicking robot doll just walking past
But if we cover each other with frozen distractions
Like wind up metal toys that slowly rust
But the never even
Whats the matter are we always running out of time
Like a distracted lover you can never satisfy

She got started up
But she let it piss away

Don't stop moving
Don't stop there
No never stop moving
Don't or you'll let it slip away
Stop moving
Don't stop there
No never stop moving
Don't or you'll let it slip away

As blood dripped from her lips like sex
Her pulse betrayed her
You're broken bones, you're cigarettes
A breaking hunger

She got started up
But she let it slip away


Tessa Hates Her Body

Tessa hates her body so she traps in a bold disuise
From behind it she can’t look me in the eyes

And if it breaks when it falls
Are the pieces left enough
Why don’t you stay
Why don’t you stay

Tessa hates her body she attacks it with a cold despair
And the lines she carves in her arms never disappear

You were lying on the floor
So I sewed your wrists close
Why don’t you stay
Why don’t you stay

There’s a pressure on my chest
There’s a pressure on my chest
Why don’t you stay
Why don’t you stay

Look what I’ve become
I’m just a strangers face in the mirror
And I’m calling out
I’m calling out
I’m calling out behind you
But you’re running like you can’t escape

Why don’t you stay


Car Crash

Car crash on the freeway
I'm rolling around in a hurricane
But before you walk away
Before you walk away

If you care for me
If you care for me
If you care for me
Get me out?

Car crash on the interstate
Words with the sound of heart ache
But before you can escape
Before you can escape

If you care for me
Get me out?

Just a minute though
Another love has grown bitter cold
And silent like inertia we'll fall into place
He stared into a mirror
And found a life that was frozen still
Blinded by the lights of oncoming disdain
Just get me out
Just get me out

If you care for me
Would you wait for me
Would you cry for me
Would you lie for me
Would you die for me

A Shy Bird

A shy bird sat in an oaken tree
And drawn like a man to the violent sea
My heartbeat stilled as she sang to me

I caught her with my hand outreached
And held her, so she’s mine to keep
And now her song will never cease

Oh what a joy
What a friend
Lend me your love
As though I intent
Oh what a toy
What a man
I’ve become
To hold for too long

The moonlight fell on an empty scene
A silence where she used to be
A ghost left by the unreleased
And like a lover lost will never be the same
And as the sunlight from the sky must surely fade
So does the singing of a shy bird in a cage

Anomalous Anatomy

You used to look good in a dress boy
Hiding your anomolous anatomy
The question of your pedigree
But it's true what they say about men
As a method of emotional economy
Rejecting your autonomy
When life is so cruel for the faithful
Living with a heart that's such a prostitute
Just look at what it's done to you

You used to look good just frightened
Hiding your anomolous anatomy
The effect was much more flattering
But envy is an angry dwarf
And he's squealing like a piglet on a knife
A pushing needle in your eye
But I bet it was a private school boy
That used to beat you senseless as a mute
And fuck the self belief back out of you

You think you're falling in love
It used to be that you'd fall much farther
It used to be that you'd trust them in time
You hang your life on a string
It used to be it would swing much farther
It used to be that you'd trust them in time

You used to look good in a dress boy
Crying in a mirror built to shatter
The anomalous anatomy

Our Own Private Communism

Could we live in our own private communism
Under the darkened skies of our modernism
Hands reaching out through the bars of our lonely prison
Ripping and tearing the knees of our unforgiven

Though there may be times in which you
Seem a habit to me

But could you want me
Could you surely long to
Be forever
Happily married to me

Could we live in our own private communism
Eight arms and legs of a spidery orgnism
Joined at the chest sewn with yarn thick with indecission
Into patterns and glued to the walls of our contraception

Though there may be times in which you seem
A habit to me
But could you want me
Could you surely long to
Be forever
Happily married to me

There's a monster at the door
He's so red and jealous
(don't be hasty)
There's a hunter lying low
He's so cold malicious
(don't be hasty)
And I'm every moment caught out unaware

Though there may be times in which you
Seem a habit to me
But could you want me
Could you surely long to
Be forever
Happily married to me you
want me could you surely long to
Be forever
Happily married to me

Love is a Cruel Machine

Love is a cruel machine
So get it out of my hands

Winches sneeze
my heart is pumping like a piston’s scream
keeps me spinning round and round
like wheels that are turning ‘til we’re Upside-down
carbon, breathing lead and sound
steel is bending under shifting walls
tears are dry before they fall
but it doesn’t matter much to me

My blood is pumping like a train that is thumping
Like a rhythm is jumping hear it… 1… 2… 1… 2…
My eye is twitching like a whore who is twisting on the floor
I can hear them
Love is a cruel machine

Control (Turn Around)

Turn around girl and you might be saved
From the hand of chance for another day
It was ours to change
I thought I could have maybe known her well
So I followed her out to the busy road
And the hand I waved
Was just too late

Turn around

Her hands were tied by the twisting thread
The child was screaming so he turned his head
But the lights had changed
And the car rolled on like a boiling wave
Turn around girl and you might be saved
But the hand of fate
Has struck too late

And you didn't see it coming
And we didn't see it coming
and she didn't see it coming
and I didn't see it coming

It's all out of my control
Turn around